Lessons I'M Learning in the Dark

What a week it has been. Throughout these past couple of days I've been so focused on certain fears that I have. I with my own Strength have allowed them to debilite and cripple me. I continued to give it to God but then something would happen to cause my Fears to take it right back. It occured to me that I am not Content; even though God's word tells me to be Content in Every SITUATION. I was FEARFUL Even though Scripture tells me to Cast all my Anxieties on HIM.
In the Calmess I feel him Gently remind ME I am HERE. I AM HERE MY DAUGHTER!!! I GOT THIS.
I Desire so much to be CONTENT in EVERY Situation. No matter what comes my way. God has met every SINGLE pne of my Needs. Even recently providing a Car for me; and so much more. I want to be a woman who wakes up every Morning feeling Blessed no matter what.
The Cold Hard Facts is that I am one BROKEN Child of GOD. But I am so Grateful that we have a Father that hears the Cry of the Broken.  I dont have all the Answers but my God does.
So I choose
To no longer Live a Life wih Regrets and Fears I am reminded everyday how Life is Short. I want ro make the most of it.
To Hunger and Thirst for GOD
To Look to Him and wait for his will not Man
TO Seek TRUTH
TO be a Faithful child of God, Daughter, Sister, Friend.

To Live Like That To be Jesus to the Least of us. To be Love to Everyone. Where Everything I say and do points to Jesus Christ.
BLESSINGS!!

Sometimes Life does not end up the way you thought it would. I remeber as a little girl Having a Plan for my Life. I would envision myself being married with a couple of kids (by now) and being in a stay at home mom or in a sucessful carrer (possibly on the mission field). The thing is that I had forgotten the biggest equation in my life GOD!!! Yes I have always given my Life over to God, but I had really thought that was God wanted for me.

But here's the thing it's ok. God is teaching me that is ok. I am now at a point in my life where everything that I Have and Am is in God's hands. I AM HIS!!!! And he is God. Yes I am not where I thought I would be at 30. Over the past months God has been teaching me several things. Yes there has been Frustration and Tears (on my part) but there has been a simple call. To give up EVERYTHING!!!! My Family, Job, Finances, Wants, Failures, Victories. Once again I am placing him God as the King of not only part of my life but all of my life. God is so GREAT!!! Some of the things he has taught my lately Are:
1. To Wait on HIM
2. To Let GO
3. That I can't live my life around making people Happy!! (big one)
4. That God is up to Something bigger (I just can't see that picture right now)
5. That my Daddy loves me and He is Ever Present. That he is not Done yet.
6. That no situation is HOPELESS!!! With God
As I think and write about all these things I have been Learning. I reminded on Good Friday that Christ came that we may have Life and have it ABUNDANTLY!! Life is Great we don't have to walk it Alone. All because of What Christ did for us on the Cross. I can come Bodly to the foot of this Cross and Surrendure Everything to Him. I know that I still have alot to Learn. But I am ready for this part of my Journey. And although I know it won't be easy. I am ready and Excited to see what he has in Store for me. Through it all May I make a Difference in this crazy World for his KINGDOM!!

3 Things to live by

I went to a Funeral today. I did not know the person who had passed away but I have known his wife ever since I was little. As I sat down with her today she was telling me about her husband. She explained to me that her husband had 3 things that defined his life. The first one was to Love God and Serve Him. Second was to do a little something nice for someone every single day. The Third was to Love Life. Wow what a Life to life. She explained to me that he tried to live a simple life. This is a man who was able to live 76 years by these 3 principles. As the Funeral went on It caused me to look at my life. Am I loving God and serving him everyday? Am I encouraging others daily even when I don't feel like it. Am I Loving Life no matter what else is going on in my life. This has become a desire of mine. Many I use these three principles in my daily life. Sometimes life is short may I live a Life of love and few regrets.

Another Lesson

I love the way that God sometimes uses normal situatuions to teach me lessons. After having Lunch with a good friend I realized that sometimes I ask way too many questions. This is a nature of mine that I really need to work (alot of the time I don't even realize that I am doing it). A habit of mine is that when I am with a good friend I want to know what is going on in thier lives. The Who, What, Why When, How. I also realized that I do this same thing with God. I find myself at times wanting to know how God is going to do something, instead of just trusting him. I need to realize that not having all of the answers is ok; God does not expect us too. So to become a better Servant and a better Friend it is now a goal of mine to just rejoice in what God is doing, to pray, too listen, and too wait. Just thought I would Share that thought.

God's Faithfulness

Well I have decided to start doing it again. (that is Blogging when I can of course). Please if you are reading this bare all of the thoughts I have on my mind today. Have you ever been in a place where so many things are happening in your life and the lives of dear friends that you love?During these times I know for me I just don't get it I ask God why and am sometimes still left with those same questions. But even as the answers seem so unclear I am reminded that God is Faithful. Yes there have been times when all all I can do is cry out to God. There have also been times when my heart has been broken for dear friends of mine and sometimes people I do not even know. But the God of this Universe has a bigger and better plan. God already knows the answers that we are looking for and sometimes he chooses to share those with us. But other times we enter this time of waiting on God. I personally experienced the Beauty of waiting on God this past year. This has been something in the past that I had never really looked forward too ( I want to know the answer and I want it now mentality). Please do not get me wrong there are still times that I struggle with this, but I have to choose to wait on him for answers for what my next step maybe. But I am left with the assurance that even when our circumstances change God does not. HE IS STILL ON THE THRONE!! And He is still FAITHFUL. I pray that this might encourage a precious heart today as it has done mine.